How It All Ranks

When it was just the two of us, Christian and me, there was plenty of time for all sorts of self-indulgent behavior, none of which I appreciated to the fullest at the time. Loki came along a few years later and things changed a little but, for the most part, there was still plenty of free time and flexibility. Luz was a smooth enough transition, well, if you overlook the whole Katrina thing. There was still free time here and there for reading magazines and testing recipes and discovering new music and for blogging - she was, after all, my muse. But, once James came along, things changed and now there really is no free time to speak of. Oh sure, at 6 am I can do whatever I want to do (usually) and occasionally this incredible thing will happen and Luz and James will both nap for an hour at the same time. There are, of course, babysitters as well. But, generally speaking, I do not have the luxury to be self-indulgent. Even as I sit here and type I am thinking about the dishes I should wash, the clothes I should fold, the work I could be doing and the lunches I could be packing. I appreciate it all now though, I have a better perspective, I think. So much of my time is spent at work and away from the kids that I long for hours on end of the kids climbing on me and asking a million questions and telling silly stories and wishing I could just hide in the corner and read a magazine, or write a blog post. You would too if this is what you saw...

Luz and James, Sunday morning January 2, 2011:


And someday soon, when I get home from work at a reasonable hour and am not distracted by chores, I will tell you all about how I am the luckiest mama in the world and about what incredible things James is doing now that he is two and how he could not have asked for a more loving and incredible big sister.